Trying a new Idea

Hey Everyone!

It’s been awhile, my apologies. Between leaving my laptop behind in every possible situation, I’ve been very busy and very tired. But I have been doing some thinking. While I like rambling in this blog, I feel like if I put more rigid guidelines on when and how I update this maybe it will help me stay on track, cause I have been struggling. And I am well aware that the struggle is part of the journey, but struggling a lot can make us all feel defeated. I’ve had great healthy days and bad not healthy days. But either way here I still stand.

Which has lead me to an important point: Don’t panic.

What I mean is don’t try to base your entire day or week over thinking about the food you have eaten. Don’t be paranoid that other people are going to judge you on what you do or do not eat. Don’t put all your emotions into the cupcake that is right in front of you( I want it so bad but if I eat it I’m bad, I’m a failure, etc). That’s something I struggle with. If I want something I over think it and over think it till I have either eaten it or willed myself not to eat it. But if I don’t eat it I have a hard time not thinking about the food still, like maybe I wished out on the most amazing cupcake in the whole world. I think when you are over thinking about the food you don’t eat or do eat, it’s all a state of panic. You have to take a deep breath, maybe count a few. If you aren’t calm how can you make a rational decision you can stand by? It’s food, one way or another. You eat it or you don’t. If you don’t you won’t get an award and if you do you won’t be punished. Take a minute and try to listen to your body. Are you actually hungry or is this an emotional drive? If you are hungry do you really want that bag of chips, why not try a bag of carrot sticks instead. And whichever direction you choose, maybe take a minute and reflect on how your decision made you feel. That’s my advice for the day.

Back onto the rigid guidelines. I think I need to get on the scale and fess up to how much damage I have done to my body, although I know I’m starting to make the journey back. Maybe share a good meal I had that day, or a temptation I overcame, a new exercise...or if I ate an entire box of mac n cheese by myself. It doesn’t have to be everyday but it should be closer to that than not. I’ve always been a creative thinker, that’s why I go off on these tangents, but I’m not as good as acting on them. That’s part of the reason I started this, to be accountable. And t be able to look back on this all and say “ this is my journey towards health, all the good, bad, and ugly parts”.  So I think I will get on the scale tomorrow( probably cry and want 8 donuts which I will try not to eat) and start actually documenting it all better. That way I can see the progress and results, and you all can to. So maybe as I get closer to health and fitness, it will help some of you guys realize you can do it to.

Pinky swear to update tomorrow he-he.

Laters,

Cassie