If any of you are like me, I have always lived by the motto “ I messed up my diet, might as well go hard”. What I mean is that if I mess up my diet in the morning, I throw the entire day away eating as much sugary, fatty, greasy as I can. I have been told time and time again that this is the worst possible thinking ever. And you know what? It is. Why would you throw away a whole day, add on all those calories just because you had a bad morning? Because what you want, is to eat bad food. You want an excuse. At least, that is the case for me.
A common excuse I make for myself is breakfast. If I forget to bring it or to be honest just point blank don’t bring it, I have an excuse. When I get to work and grab my morning coffee, I can grab a doughnut too. If not I can get a Nutella to go, or just come into my office and eat some cookies or cake; we usually have at least one of those options. And I mean in my mind as soon as I've taken that bite of doughnut, or cookie, or dip of Nutella; the day is lost. I will then go on to eat as bad as possible. Why? Well in my head I tell myself that I will start fresh tomorrow and thus be on the right track.
In some perfect and magical world that would be the case. I’d wake up the next day and since I ate my healthy breakfast of oatmeal or wheat toast with a hard boiled egg, then I would be unstoppable. I would eat healthy from that point on and never falter. I really wished I lived in that world, but I don’t. none of us do. Just because you have a bad morning you can’t just throw the day away. Actually its not even a case of throwing the day away, it’s making the day worse, adding on more calories and fat you don’t need. And what is to say that you cave and have a “bad” lunch like a friend buffalo chicken sandwich with lots of greasy salty fries. By my grand reasoning you would then go on to eat as much as you could for the rest of the day since this magically promise of tomorrow looms in the distance.
It’s insane. If I tell myself everyday that once I have that bad breakfast, I can binge all day and start fresh tomorrow…well what happens when I then have a doughnut when I get into work? Then of course I can eat crap all day and wait for tomorrow. See where I’m going with this? Nothing will ever change cause I’m not actually changing anything.
“Insanity: doing the same thing over and over again and expecting different results,” Albert Einstein.
And right he was. Well I decided upon starting this journey that I really would try to get out of my old patterns of self destruction when it comes to eating. Little did I know that day 1 would give me that exact opportunity. I got to work only to discover that I had left my healthy breakfast at home, safely in the fridge. Panic set in and for moment I thought, " oh well I'll have to start tomorrow". But I stopped( literally I was walking) and realized exactly what I have been talking about above. You either decide you are going to stick with something or you're not. No time of day will change that. And no bump in the road should either. So today I turned down the temptress that is a doughnut, and thus was more sure of myself in other healthy decisions through out my day.
Let's see how I do when I in fact eat a doughnut...will i keep moving...or will I use that doughnut to float down the lazy river of sugar and fat?
Talk to you soon,
Cassie
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